#me: you really think igaf

[savage-rhi]

Magentaahh!

[l0vem41l]

something's wrong with the morning.

「 tws + notes: no tws, unedited 2 the max, potentially ooc but WHO GAF (me. igaf), he misreads tone over text and it's totally not me projecting, bros just a little anxious and its totally not me projecting, richard "acts of service" grayson in the real, pretty heavily romantic implied but it can be interpreted as platonic becuz we fw that here!!!!! 」

「 gn!reader, can be platonic or romantic <3 」

↳ ft. richard "dick" grayson/nightwing

author's note: yes i am uh. doing More dc stuff. guys im really sorry but its literally leeching off my brain like a parasite i fear. enjoy!!!!!!! ♪(´▽｀) <3 the lyric below is what i based this off of but as usual, GENDER NEUTRAL READER!!!

"and how something's wrong with the morning / when he doesn't phone to say he loves me"

dick has been staring at the text since the minute he received it.

“gm.”

you sent two letters. and a period at the end.

immediately, there's a weird feeling he gets— a pit forming in the depths of his stomach as he reads it over and over again, as if he expects it to magically change in front of his eyes.

you usually send something… more in the morning. you greet him happily and use a silly nickname, he greets you and uses a silly nickname back. it's sort of tradition for the two of you, mainly built on the fact that him being a vigilante leaves very little time for the two of you.

so what the hell happened to that tradition? where’s his “good morning pookie!” or “hope you slept well, sunshine :]” that he's grown so accustomed to?

of course, he has to go on with his day like usual. at least, he's trying his best. to his credit, he does pretty well. after all, dick grayson is a performer at heart! even if it secretly feels like a part of his world just collapsed in on itself, he does not sulk about it.

but to the observant, there's obviously been a shift.

the slightly irritable mood he’s been in? definitely normal. the fact that he’s been swiping away every notification with disinterest if it’s not you? totally nothing.

more astute criminals in blüdhaven are a little off put by the fact that nightwing is still at full quip capacity while hitting just a little harder and being just a teeny bit more bitchy.

there nervous speculation going around that next week he'll be in the discowing fit

nightwing notices that his mask is slipping a bit. but does he care? well... not really. what's more important to him is what's going on inside his head. and he's been thinking— hardcore reflecting on every single recent previous interaction with you, looking back to everything that must’ve made things go wrong.

maybe he should’ve let you win that one argument last monday, even though he’d been pretty certain he was right because you really aren't supposed to stack cards in uno that way.

or maybe “anything’s fine” as a response to you asking what he wanted for dinner was the wrong move— he knew you hated when he didn’t help your indecisiveness.

was it the movie he picked for movie night on your hangout? fuck, that might've been it, you totally hate the main actor. how could he have forgotten?

either way, he’s dead set on the fact he did something to piss you off and now you won’t even greet him good morning.

later in the afternoon, you find a cute little basket on your doorstep containing your favorite flowers, your favorite snacks… and an apology note??

“dick,” you message, “what’s going on?”

he doesn’t reply back. instead, he calls you.

before you can even greet him, his voice chimes in with a whole spiel you didn't expect to be hit with.

“i messed up. i know i did and i should've done better. and i’m so sorry, i wanna make this work and i just— from the bottom of my heart— i really, truly apologize—”

you blink several times at your phone before interrupting. “oookay, woah, woah, woah. let's slow down. the fuck are you apologizing for?”

“...your message this morning.” he mumbles out, barely audible. you can hear the pout in his voice somehow.

“what? the one i typed up while rushing to work?” it’s hard to stifle your laughter. “dude, i just woke up a little late. i promise i still love you.”

he doesn't know whether to feel more relieved that you're not actually upset with him or embarrassed about the drastic, immediate measures he took to make things right. things being absolutely nothing, because obviously you weren't gonna be petty over uno rules, nondecisions, or movies.

"you should come over. we can share the snacks if you get here in time." click.

he'll be at your door the minute patrol is done. not for the snacks though it is a nice bonus but to see you. lord knows you need the time together.

— reblogs always appreciated!

[kecrow]

Mouthwashing and Abortion in AU's

(Apologies in advance for my English)

I really don't want to be the AU police but I feel like someone has to say this sooner or later

You can't have a 'Happy Ending' without killing Jimmy before he SA's Anya, not even with the abortion because that would still be a neutral ending

I think people forget that abortion is not a short and painless process and no, I've never had an abortion or even had my first kiss but guess what there's something called being informed and educated on the subject that you're in favor or against

And don't come at me with a clothespin because that just proves my point that a lot of people are very insensitive about the subject

If in your AU you say that Anya had an abortion, you have to think about how she did it on a ship, with her rapist, an Inter (Daisuke) and a mechanic (swansea)

That's the joke of AU's, to think of other possibilities and realities and put it into words

I understand why people might get angry/disgusted to see that Anya had the baby, nobody likes to know that the product of An act of evil and greed becomes a reality but it is the most realistic in Anya's situation because it is her situation in the game she only has two options

Have the baby or die

If you decide to write an AU where Anya aborts the baby you have to explain how it happened and you and I know that abortion is not a simple process without pain due to the conditions and situation Anya is in and if you as a reader do not like that Anya had the baby it is understandable but do not go around saying "she could have aborted it with a clothes hanger" because that only shows that you do not know what media literacy is or you do not understand what an abortion is at all

Please read,learn and understand if you decide to touch a such delicate subject like abortion igaf if you are in favor or against I just want that people

I just want people to understand that even though abortion would be the best thing for Anya (which it is) it doesn't mean it's possible. And if you want to make it possible, explain.

media literacy is not dead You just need to learn and learning is the best thing you can do as a human because we,humans were born to learn

(Sorry for my English again)

[m1ssunderstanding]

Get Back Rewatch 55 Years On: Day One

So I know this has probably been overdone by lots of people on lots of years but I haven't done it yet and I want to so here goes: I'm going to rewatch get back with the days matched up and catalogue my thoughts as I watch.

We don't get to see George and John saying hi to each other, but I'm struck by how careful they are with Ringo when he comes in. "Hi Ringo, happy new year." From both of them, with full eye contact soft, sweet voices. I wonder if they're really wanting to be so gentle with him after what happened at the end of August. Not like walking on eggshells at all, but just very "we're working on doing better because we care about you."

While Paul's not there, John is giving George full attention, leaning in to him, facing him while they sing, and George seems to really love it

But then Paul shows up and you can tell before we even see him that he's arrived, because suddenly John's gaze is gone from George. His eyebrows shoot up, he chin-tilts, and (this sounds insane I know but it's what I just watched) his singing drastically improves. He's putting effort in, performing.

Paul sits down and the shy little grins and glances and inside jokes (at George's expense and hypocritical of John) ensue immediately.

Ringo's jacket. The black with the maroon velvet collar. It's very cool and it's very unique to him. I don't see the other three pulling it off the way he does. He just has effortless swagger. If the other three wore something like that they'd look like try-hards.

George's sassy little hair flip. "oh, you're recording our conversation?"

Meanwhile John and Paul are back at it like magnets I swear. Turned in to each other, talking gibberish, and strumming

George with the deadpan sass again. "Maybe we should just learn a few songs first." Lol he's so stone cold.

"Oh please believe me." "Yes I will." Come on. Do you ever stop? And then the silent communication when they screwed up. We don't see Paul's face but John makes such a cute "oops sorry" face and they keep going.

Paul's literally so bossy. I find it such a turn on, really, watching it. Just because it's him being a genius who has a vision and sucks at social skills. But if I were in that band and he wasn't letting me hit I'd literally hate him.

John's so delighted with Paul's "everybody's got a hard on... Except for me and my monkey." Because that's one of the ways he often expresses his love for Paul and Paul's giving it back to him here. So John's just "Oh he made a joke about my song. He's teasing me. He does like me."

Paul literally diggs John's part of IGAF so fucking hard though. Like as soon as John's singing, Paul can not be still. Can not. He just thinks John's so so clever (and to be fair he is)

Crazy eye fucking continues

Then Paul's off to talk big boy plans with the daddies for a minute. (would love to know who he waved at then sucked his finger) "Is this your place, Twickenham?" Okay. Feeling out a potential daddy's pockets. I see you.

Obsessed with Yoko's emerald bag and how she got her little boyfriend to wear the exact color of Henley. Ken was literally made to be Barbies accessory and he's doing such a great job matching her purse. She's so pretty and cool.

It cracks me up how extremely nonchalant Ringo is about Magic Christian. (I LOVE that movie. Ringo is so hot in it and it's anti-capitalist so it's a winner). Dennis O'Dell is all "the scripts are marvelous." And Ringo's just "yeah you told me." And then Dennis is like "I'll take up up and show you around these really great sets." Ringo: "yeah okay." It's almost like the other three have no chill so he has to have only chill to balance it out.

They really are so blunt with each other when they don't like something. "I don't dig that." "Scrap that." Which is good. If only they could've been blunt when they did like things too though. And I guess they were sometimes. Like John telling Paul to keep that lyric in Hey Jude. But I don't think they were half as open with their positive feelings about each other's work as they were the other way around and that's so sad to me.

Why does George single Paul out about the sandwiches? It's cute. I love it. But what is it? Is he particularly worried about Paul and food because Paul's picky? Is it just their relationship that they take care of each other in these simple ways because they can't take care of each other emotionally?

Fucking hell why does Paul literally flirt with everyone all the time? "No separation in there." "Rain or snow will do me." "Yeah, you're pretty right, Michael."

Pretty sure John was looking at the lyrics of TOU off that sheet that said "Another Quarrymen Original" at the bottom. I wonder what he thought of that. I wonder if it was there to signal him, and if so what was it signalling? "Hey this is about you."??

"Two of us Henry Cooper." Referencing a boxer in a song about him and John. Why? Because they're fighting?

[coeluvr]

just finished playing, omg first of all this is such a quality ass if game like let me take notes... second of all, i didn't read some of the notes on this game in the intro post since i wanted to go in blind. so the stuff with lancelot and luceris took me by surprise and i very audibly went "PEEPAW NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOUVE BEEN CURSED WITH SHIT TASTE" like i'm trying not to gaf but i fear igaf... outside of that though, on a serious note i'm so so endeared with the writing and every character in here. i really love helios especially. and i like how the game doesn't play about this being an awful situation and you have every right to be angry and spiteful as you wish to be. really curious about the truth of everything, and i'm excited to see more!! gl!!!! i know this will continue to be very great!

Lmao I think many others can say they also think Lancelot has shit taste 😭😭 I'm glad you give a fuck, if you didn't then I wouldn't have done a good job! 🤭

Thank you for your kind words! 💗 Helios deserves all the love he receives, he's really a good person. 🥺

[velvet-apricots]

How about Ranni for that one character ask meme if you still take those?

favorite thing about them

I honeslty love her accent, design and color palette. It is all rather simple but very appealing. I also very much love personality when she is comfortable with the tarnished. She is sassy and has a bit of humor to her.

least favorite thing about them

her actions and the consequences. IGAF if seluvis ends up dead, but Iji and Blaidd... She really isnt all that different than the other Demi-gods, at the end of the day.

favorite line

"I'd heard tell of a Tarnished hurtling about atop a spectral steed." why? cause she sounds cool when she says it.

brOTP

Ranni and her little gaggle of friends, sans Seluvis. Fuck Seluvis (HE IS COOL DONT GET ME WRONG BUT COME ON NO ONE LIKES HIM IN GAME). He can trip on a rock or something. I am sure the others will like it

OTP

Don't have one. I just don't care about any of the ships with her. Read a few dif ones on and off our of pure curiosity but nothing clicked.

nOTP

uh.... *pulls something random out of her ship hat* Seluvis/Ranni? huh. Yeah I guess that one sucks.

random headcanon

Because she has long moments of inactivity, her doll body is prone to getting spiders living in it. Every time she wakes up and moves and one comes out, she screams.

unpopular opinion

I don't think her Age of Stars is as great as everyone says. AND NO. It's not because I don't understand it. I know what it is perfectly. She takes her new order to space and fucks off and lets everyone live free of it's influence. Cool, except the lands between are a complete shit hole. If she just leaves and puts nothing in place to help stabilize it, it will just remain a shit hole, or be destroyed by some other force. The least she can do is linger a bit to ensure the people left have some safety and stability before leaving.

That is why in my verse, the age of perfected order comes first. It fixes and stabilizes the Lands Between, and then when Marika has finally had enough, and just crumbles to dust, Ranni can step in with her age of stars and leave.

song i associate with them

favorite picture of them

That fucking comic where she is like "brother doth thou ever wear a shirt?" and Godwyn is just, stoned out of his mind going "a what?"

[subskz]

alr strap up IN ladies nd gays grindset live reaction to bb4 REAL (⬅️ pretending like the warnings aint got me quaking in my boots)

THE TWIN FLAMES CONVO I AM GIGGLING ND KICKING MY FEET DAWG THEY ARE SAUR CUTE I’M SICK,,, got me feelin delusional fr like yes chanathan nd i are soulmates thx for asking 😏 “do you like your reflection?” ”for once i do” SHUT THE FAWK UPPP I’LL CRY YOU THINK IGAF?!?!

hol up another #ourgeniusgrindset moment,,, a bitch just realized this goes back to bb1 THE FUCKEN PART WHERE Y/N TELLS CHANNIE TO PUT A FLAME BY HER CONTACT IN THE LIBRARY?!?! THE FUCKEN FORESHADOWING?!?!? MISSUS RIN YOU ARE INSANE FOR THIS ONE LITERALLY GOT ME FEELING LIKE THIS CONNECTING THE DAWTS

i loved that whole ass bowling scene like legit i would read 500k words of just y/n and hyungline fucking around THEY ARE SAUR SPECIAL TO ME 🥹🫶🏽 BUT LEE KNOW’S ANNOYING ASS PROVOKING,,, i’m glad y/n is losing patience wit him like mf i will show you a temper 🤣 nd changbinnie once again slaying as the best damn character in this fic i love him saur moch ngl it kinda makes me soft tht he still cares so much about y/n’s feelings even tho minho is his close bestie

OK IM BOUTTA DIVE BACK IN SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE QUEENIE

HERE WE GO!! please step up to the podium and never leave my dearest grindset hehe you know i love reading ur feedback like the finest literature!

they are so disgustingly in love aren’t they…thank you for supporting all the lovey dovey nonsense that ensues between channie and the reader HAHA i simply can’t help myself…them being twin flames gives me the perfect excuse for them to be this corny 🥰 I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU CAUGHT THAT DETAIL…our genius grindset indeed omg ur mind is sharp as ever! yes i wanted to include lil hints of them being twin flames all throughout the story but i thought it’d be more fun if it wasn’t acknowledged until the end hehe…and thermodynamics + the emphasis on temperature was the opportunity for that >:) it seriously warms my heart that u noticed smth as small as that!

that’s so sweet of you to say 😭 u know i love my hyung line boys don’t test me i might just actually do it! i’m really happy you enjoy the scenes w them they’re lots of fun to write! BINNIE <333 truly our best boy and the reader’s lifeline…now that bb is complete it’s safe to say i had the best time writing him throughout the story! and yes! as much as bin loves lino he also has a lot of love for the reader that she underestimates ㅠ

judging by where you’ve left off things are abt to get a lil bumpy out there…i wish u the best of luck w the rest of pt.4 babe ♡

[ntaras]

ik the dlc is only a datamined script with missing scenes but i need to get this one thought about it out which will be under the cut if you wanna avoid the leaks

it’s too fucking early for noob saibot let alone an even LAMER version of the jobber he was in mk11. it’s also too early for trying to uncorrupt noob saibot/bi-han. i honestly think they should have let him be a antagonist dickwad for a couple more games to keep the sub-zero and scorpion rivalry running for a little while longer and then should have killed him and brought in noob saibot which leads kuai liang on his side quest to uncorrupt/save bi-han.

it would be interesting to see kuai liang fight against the WORST possible version of bi-han- like even worse than the brother who betrayed him and now he has to save that brother who betrayed him.

their rivalry in mk12 is already as frustrating as it is, but noob saibot’s placement in the dlc story just kind of… makes it worse because noob saibot could’ve been a tool that gave the tragedy in the rivalry that was lacking (imo).

like ok, bi-han gets to be the hero in the end of it by defeating havik which is obviously similar to mytholgies where this really rude assassin gets to save the world but it’s just really a poor mimicry of what bi-han did in mytholgies. and also like fine, bi-han trying to kill havik for what he did to him and still being selfish is similar to bi-han still staying in the lin kuei even after learning of his potential fate if he keeps a darkened soul but IT’S ALSO NOT SIMILAR. whch ik it’s meant to be similar in reference to mythologies and not the exact same cause it’s a new era, but as i said before, it feels like a poor mimicry of mythologies

nothing about mk12 noob saibot/bi-han makes me really think “i want bi-han to someday be uncorrupted from noob saibot”.

to sum it up idgaf about a bi-han redemption arc igaf about him having a good story which mk12 is not providing him!!!

anyways i don’t think these thoughts should be taken super seriously considering the dlc is prolly like a year away + the script has missing lines. i just had to vent a little about it. i’m sure when the actual dlc story comes out i’ll be having another meltdown

[aquariusgod]

I’m banned on Reddit so I can’t ask this Q considering Tumblr is dead..I hope you answer since you still use it 🤞🏽

I’m having communication issues with a Scorpio sun & moon M, Virgo rising, Sagittarius Venus & mars.

When we first started talking he was like obsessed with me, giving me compliments, wanting to know me then after a month of this I decided to give him my number, once he got my number he started acting really dry (it was fine & now it’s really dry) however he is the one that starts the convo each & every time.. I never text him first.

Why does he keep blowing up my phone but every time I do respond he gives me 0 energy. Lately he has been an ass hat.

He keeps sending me chats with other girls like Igaf- I ask him what he wants me to do with this information? & he says the word nothing. So I change the subject & he goes back to being dry?

I even said I think those girls are hot & he says I’m hotter & bunch of NSFW that he likes about me but why is he so dry then?? He use to want to live up my ass, not he is dry & rude yet he still wants me???

He was so charming & fun before the texts & now he is just a straight bully with 0 humour or fun.. why do you think he switched up?

Honestly, Scorpios I feel tend to have a dryer texting style that warms up overtime and Sagittarius placements tend to have that "bullying as flirting" energy but I am not a fan of it.

I'd probably just say let him go, if it's an energy you're not meshing with there is probably a good reason. If you're going to keep going, you should just say you don't want to see his chats with other girls & you'd prefer if y'all talk on the phone.

[tryhardgwen]

rs archive 05/13/2024:

Out of genuine curiosity, what are your thoughts on "morally questionable" fics (especially in the rpf community)? Please feel free to ignore this if answering that question makes you uncomfortable!

hi anon and thank you for your ask! sorry for the late answer, i was thinking on this one for a while. trigger warning for anyone, i mention sensitive topics here.

the thing about morals is that they're subjective. like, obviously, many people like to think they're objective, and they are to a point. like MORALLY, child abuse is BAD! that is very true! don't abuse children guys! but what i'm trying to say is the line blurs a bit when it comes to comparably less bad and harmful stuff--what you're talking about: the ~questionable~. some people think writing rpf is morally wrong. do i? looks at my works um no. personally, i think life is too short to ponder on the morality of writing stupid fanfiction about league of legends proplayers. but to answer your question on "morally questionable" topics in fics specifically--im assuming, r/nc, death, self-harm/suicidal ideation, gore, abject characterization (like portraying (specifically an irl person) as a rapist or something)? i think it's the same kinda thing. people do or not do it, if i don't like it i won't interact. im sure they have their reasons and im im not going to go yelling at people for doing something or not doing something. was nabokov wrong for writing lolita? will me answering that question change anything? as long as you are true to yourself, your morals, and your beliefs, then i think that's good. in the broader scope of things, whats important is living a happy and fulfilling life yk. igaf what people do. i personally don't feel comfortable reading or writing some things, so i just don't do it or interact with it.

however, i have written/am writing gore and some more heavy topics (im literally working on a hunger games au right now). i'm sure that falls under "morally questionable/wrong" for some people. im sure rpf falls under "morally questionable/wrong" for some people! like, don't blame me was rather "tame" but like, if you think about it seriously, i literally strip keria of his humanity and turn him into an obsession demon. is that wrong? who knows i just thought "haha runeterra demon" because i read WAY too much fiddlesticks lore and then wrote a fic. i touch on suicidal ideation, self-harm, and abuse in all my love. i probably/might/maybe/im not promising anything will write some form of smut in the future, only what im comfortable with though. like i said, it's largely an introspective experience and has to do with yourself and your morals. if you decide you don't like something, don't interact, but don't go spreading hate to the people that do like it. the only thing i regret in reference to my fics and morality is probably like, we just need some time together but only because i was in a bad headspace when i wrote it (depression goes brr) and i think i used a lot of my emotions there in a bit of an unfiltered way. maybe it isn't as bad as i remember it, though. i haven't read it in a while and i wrote it two-ish years ago. should probably reread it.

just cus this is MY retrospring (ha) ill leave a lil list for people about my works specifically (subject to change, but probably wont). basically what my fics revolve around, what i will/wont write. um, all my fics revolve mainly around love. (love that takes a darker turn in like, don't blame me) but it really is the main topic i write about--relationships and love (but doesn't everyone?). haha funny for an arospec girl, right--but love exists on many wavelengths, not just romantic, so yeah. love for writing and esports and the players in general is why i write. next, i won't ever write suffering for the sake of it. im not someone who goes into google docs like "im going to write whump and cause pain and suffering and make people cry!" if angst in a fic doesn't have a substantial purpose or reason then i'm not doing it. i've scrapped one fic that did that (im not proud that i started it in the first place, but tbf to defend 2023 gwen i was in a really bad place mentally). i also won't write r/nc or like ship minors w adults or anything bc that is not something i want to do! i probably wont ever write like pure pwp cus i don't wanna. i try to portray the more difficult subjects in my works like sh/suicidal ideation/abuse/depression well and non-offensively. i keep my shipping in private places: ao3, tumblr, a private twitter, because that's what i want to do. i've identified my own morals and i stick to them!

all in all, rpf in general is weird. it literally is projecting fantasies on real people (shipping or not, which why i kind of LOL at people that hate fics shipping or with smut of real people yet turn around and write fics killing real people. ...?) like i said: it's all the same isn't it? we're projecting fake fantasies on real people and turning them into characters. obviously some fantasies are um, "worse" than others but that's exactly what i mean--that's for you to decide. i always make sure to detach my fanfiction from reality--i don't actually think the ppl im shipping are in love, and i don't take portrayals of proplayers and their characters 1to1. if a character is a "jerk" in a fic im not going to turn and go hate on that proplayer irl.

what i have realized for myself and what i can say is... don't stress about it. like i said, life is too short to worry about whether or not reading/writing fanfiction about real people (that they will (probably) never see) is a bad thing. if you get a thesis statement from this long-ass answer, it's literally life is too short to worry about [insert text here]. chill! go forth and have fun!! i love yall!!! alright, gwen out.

comment: 1k answer kinda insane BUT i wanted to add (if anyone even read this) that i realize i did stray away from the og question and focused a lot on "rpf" later in my answer, but since it's what i write/do i just naturally have a lot of thoughts/advice (?) on that. so yeah. i sort of used this question as a broad point to talk about rpf and fics and the morality of it in general!

[robotsafari]

mostly when i get mad about thigns like. re:com being a bad remake. heroes of mana genunielymaking me feel miserable because of how terrible it is. my opinions ofc.

im not gonna kill you if you played re:com over the gba version. its just that your problems with the gameplay might because you are playing the inferior version. and if its just because of cards then thats ok. com on gba isnt perfect but theres something about the 3D camera that doesnt gel well with beat em up gameplay in the remake.

and if you have no problems and think the re:com gameplay is better than thats fine. actually igaf about gameplay that much. i just thought that gba com's gameplay was really interesting and fun.

my real issue is with story related changes. i would go into a multi-paragraph rant about how lexaeus' death was changed but we'd be here forever. so no time fo dat.

[le-souriant]

#MusicMonday Review - November 2022

#MusicMonday is the hashtag I've been using for quite a while to share music recommendations from up-and-coming artists. Always fresh, and always different, trying to look for trends before they become one. You can check October's review for more music.

Indie or Punk? Punk or Indie? Let's have fun traveling the world in a friendly showdown between cutting edge examples both have to offer. Let's have a listen, with a word from the artists themselves. 🎧

Igaf Sequoia – Trap Door

Everyone wants to be king In a world full of powerful men It doesn't work that way

The wheel of fortune it spins It's rigged you'll never win

Like a slot machine in sin city I know you think you can but you'll never win, you'll never win

Our musical trip begins in Los Angeles, CA with a calm Indie Folk song, reflective of a familiar garden full of secrets. Just hold on to me:

"Almost all of our songs are derived through a composite of inspiration. Both instrumental harmonies and personal experiences inform this song in particular. Song writing, from the perspective of the lyricist, is a fluid mixture of poetry, memory and dreams.

The lyrics for this song were a spontaneous emotional response to the culmination of instruments and harmonies as they presented themselves. The lyrics wrote themselves in response to the vibrations. Musically as a band that has always been guitar first and then layered with instrumentation, for this song we flipped it and had my guitar part translated and recorded on keyboards first and then layered instrumentation from there to try and create a separate sound from our previous catalog of songs.

Generally speaking the vast majority of our songs thematically touch on our experiences with the drug addiction, idealism and heartbreak of our youth and reconciling that against growing older, getting sober, and becoming parents."

Pat Chow – Noxious Weed

There's seasons greetings And reasons fleeting To get on from day to day But that summertime and all the sun shiny glitter Mesmerizes the heart of me

We will continue on with our lives The sun will give and take The sun will shine We'll all get on with it Get on with it With our lives in the summertime

From Indie Folk, we now fly all the way to Perth, Australia for an Indie Punk jammy track that takes us through an all-season journey of a toxic seed you'd regret to plant:

"I wrote this song on the 1st of January 2019. It was summer time and I wanted to write a summer song. It's about the good times you have with friends and reflecting on that while realizing the good times are almost over. I was at the end of my tether of a silly season bender.

The second verse wrote itself using the rest of the seasons and a dash of self depreciation. The refrain we will continue with our lives is about how life goes on regardless of how you feel or what you want, things just continue to happen and they happen to you and you'll get on with it one way or another, with joy or begrudgingly."

Kikker – Trash

Be trash Go home Be garbage Alone

Staying with the Punk vibe, let's earn more flyer miles traveling to Swansea, Wales for some fast-paced, hard-edged melodic, rebellious Garage Frog Rock:

"Lyrically, the track is about frustration; about feeling stuck, and feeling that you’re unable to change anything. It’s about repeating cycles and feeling unable to break out of them, or feeling unable to cause meaningful change."

The Volts – The Less I Think I Know

But time goes on and on Where’s the place it all went wrong One day it’s there the next it’s gone  You’ve got to keep on keeping on

Just goes to show The more I think the less I think I know And even though It’s been so long I’ll miss you when you go

We move up north to West Lothian, Scotland for a straight up Indie track that knows it: when nothing seems to sink in, it can make you feel like sinking:

"The song's not really based on one experience in particular but more so about looking back on different things in the past and realizing how little you know about them and how differently you would handle them if they happened now."

Hausers – Chairoplane

Free to run with a bike riding with my brother undefeated pirates from the city

The Chairoplane runs turns round and round still a race with the bumper cars just long enough to smash my front teeth

We finally land in Milan, Italy for a Lo-Fi Americana song that evokes Aunt Lily singing for the Pope while she's washing in the basement bathroom:

"Basically, the song speaks of me when I was a kid.

I'm from the city, and my uncles lived in a small town in the countryside far from cities, which was a situation I wasn't used to be.

A genuine experience with real people, real feelings, and sincere human relationships, felt for the first time only far from the city, that gave fresh air while riding a bike in bucolic fields, having fun during the feast of the town imagining a peasant life, like in a painting by Ligabue. A picture of the life in the campaign.

You should see a film called "L'alberto degli zoccoli" of Ermanno Olmi.

It's in a strict italian dialect (that also I'm not able to understand), but it's a superlative film to understand where my feelings came from."

Listen to them and much more on the Playlist

@osornios

[hdhdkekjfjcnskjcncndmnf]

okay lets see how im truly going

first of all, no. im not eating properly, ive eaten nothing but stale bread and some soft drink i find in the fridge . sometimes i dont eat at all and honestly i dont really care that much about that haha

i havent had a good night sleep for a few months . or well years if you count the other times too, but even if i sleep i dont feel rested at all or if so i just have nightmares over and over so i rather not sleep sometimes . it doesnt help i know but its all i can do

i havent had any energy to take care of myself either , i dont shower properly for months too but i still brush my teeth so i guess its fine i think

ive stopped thinking about how much i couldve done better because that just hurts me a bit but its true lmao

im not a good person

im not what youd call a good friend

im sure that if i go and come back after weeks people wouldnt have missed me at all even if they say otherwise

i dont like myself or anything about that makes me "nice" , i want people to understand that im not good . or tolerable or something igaf

ive lost every bit of hope to live , i just wont kill myself completely yet because i have exams to do but if it wasnt for that i dont think anyone would really care so i would be free to do it

i know its wrong but you know what? i dont care

i dont care if you do . ive stopped trying to understand why they "care"

i wanna be something good too but im not capable to be anything other than a bother and yadda yadda you get the point

maybe its because im back at school but ive been feeling like this for a big while and therapy is not really helping me that much but its a progress so might as well cooperate

maybe slowly ill grow out of this maybe not

i dont care and you dont either :)

[mobiused]

blocked 🤣🤣🤣

[sunstartle]

I’m too sleep deprived to restrain myself from saying this and I’ve wanted to say it for years…

I do not have the suspension of disbelief to think that Ruby would ever, in a million years, date Emerald period.

This isn’t just “ship bashing” time, it’s: ‘Regardless of how poorly written you personally think their relationship was, so much of Ruby and Sapphire’s character arcs depend on each other and their inherent connection with each other” and “Ruby and Emerald barely seem to like eachother” and “Ruby and Emerald don’t have much of anything thematically interesting going on”

Hell, I’d believe Emerald and Sapphire dating before I’d believe Emerald and Ruby dating. I’d believe Ruby and Liasa saying, I’d believe Ruby and Wally dating, hell I’d believe Ruby dating any of his immediate juniors or seniors.

But not Ruby and Emerald.

The fact that so many people are willing to engage with and create content for two male characters who have no reason in canon to be together — while barely caring about female characters at all is telling. You can see it in the way that people barely ever mention Yellow or Blue in Originalshipping fics (except to help out the men, of course); or how you barely hear a word about Crystal in the vast majority of Preciousmetal fics. And to clarify: I am fine with and even enjoy both of those ships most of the time! But it’s hard not to notice after a bit.

Even when people make WLW ship content it always feels like it’s to get the women out of the way, or it’s done as a side mention. Rarely do I hear about or see people exploring the in-depth nuances of sapphic relationships in Pokespe without men somehow being in the forefront. And that’s an absolute shame, because a lot of sapphic ships in Pokespe have the potential to be really interesting if people would explore them properly!

Now let me be clear about my biases here. Franticshipping is my favorite ship of any fandom, hands down period. While I would believe any of the aforementioned ships with Ruby or Sapphire, I still wouldn’t like to read them because doing so makes me viscerally uncomfortable. Honestly that’s a part of the reason why I don’t engage with a lot of the larger fandom as a whole — and to clarify, that isn’t an “I think this is a problem” sort of thing, it’s just a hang-up of mine that I understand to be just a me thing (create all the content you want and so long as you tag it properly IGAF!)

But! But.

Frantic is a straight ship, yes, but it’s a straight ship composed of two at least somewhat gender nonconforming leads. Again, remember when this was first published — Ruby being portrayed as flaymboyant and feminine whilst being entirely straight is hugely fucking progressive; hell it’s even progressive by today’s standards. And obviously women tend to get more leeway in the femininity department nowadays, but still!

It is straight and it is played straight, not as a punchline or a gag. Sapphire is the more aggressive and physically competent of the two of them. Ruby sews her clothing and is interested in looking pretty. Neither of them have moments where their sexuality is questioned because of their interests, and they are both given the freedom to be well-rounded characters and have an interesting romantic relationship with each other rather than being some punchline in a newspaper strip or something.

So when people look at Ruby, and nod, and go “ah yes he must be gay” it feels like stereotyping. There is a stark difference between queer coding a character, and having a feminine male character who is very interested in women and has a romantic relationship with a woman which is a big focal point of his story. You feel me? There isn’t one homoerotic male friendship to be found with Ruby — he isn’t Red or Gold — and he literally only has super deep important character moments with and surrounding Sapphire.

Please understand: I’m not trying to say that straight ships are somehow marginalized or whatever, or that if Ruby had been in a gay relationship that it wouldn’t have been progressive at all. That is absolutely not what I am trying to say here.

What I am trying to say here — and what I hope that I’ve managed to get across — is that I see shipping Ruby with Emerald as downright unbelievable, the Pokespe fandom (as well as a lot of other fandoms) has a tendency to shove aside female characters in favor of male-focused storylines, and that Franticshipping is still a progressive ship even though it’s straight.

What baffles me the most about this whole thing, I guess, is that people who hate how Frantic played out in canon just Will Not engage with it! The kinds of people who love rewrites!

If you want queer rep, Frantic already screams Bi4Bi and/or T4T. If you find it narratively unsatisfying, make it satisfying! If you don’t like their dynamic, change it — you’re already changing a lot of personalities already!

I’m perfectly fine with people disagreeing with this post, by the way, I’d just ask that you please try to take this in good faith and not be too harsh just because I’m the kind of person who can get anxiety spirals over internet arguments 😭 Also I’d love it if ppl who want to argue back/discuss do so on this post and not the thing where you screenshot and reupload to bash someone thanks 🙏

[luci-in-trenchcoats]

Unspoken

Summary: Dean is cursed with the inability to speak unless a cure can be found. It begins to wear on him in more ways than one...

Pairing: Dean x reader

Word Count: 1,800ish

Warnings: language

“Stay down,” said Dean, aiming his gun at the witch.

“Why don’t you shut up,” she said, throwing something at Dean. You both shot and she was dead like that but Dean had a hand on his throat, turning to you with a bit of panic in his eyes.

“Dean!” you said, expecting him to start gasping that he couldn’t breathe but it never came. Dean only continued to claw at his throat, opening his mouth and staring at you. “What’d she do?”

You watched him move his lips and even his tongue but not a whisper came out, no sound at all. He looked like he was trying to shout but there was nothing, Dean spinning around.

“You can’t talk?” you asked, Dean nodding as he found a piece of paper and a pen, jotting something down quick.

Can breathe. No talking though. Find spellbook.

“Alright. You look down here. I’ll take upstairs.”

About an hour later, Dean was poking his head in a room, tossing a notebook at you before walking away.

Found it. Doesn’t mention anything. I dealt with the witch. I grabbed the book so let’s go home. Maybe Sam can figure it out.

“Well, I’m sure this will be an enjoyable drive home.”

“Wait. So you can’t talk?” said Sam. Dean rolled his eyes and rested his head on his hands. “Really?”

“Yes, Sam. He’s cursed or under a spell. Help me figure this out, alright?” you said. Sam held up his hands, chuckling a little. “Sam.”

“Hey, compared to the usual crap that happens to us, at least this isn’t so bad, right? It’s not trying to kill him at least,” said Sam.

Dean sighed but gave a half-hearted smile and nodded. He waved and you followed after to the library, each one of you heading off to do your own research.

Hopefully you could find a cure soon.

Four Months Later

Sam was off on another random lead that probably wouldn’t pan out. You’d managed to find a nice and easy ghost hunt but you couldn’t even drag Dean along with you. That was your rule. It was too dangerous to bring him along when he couldn’t talk. It was strange how everything around him seemed to mute. Plates didn’t make noise when they stacked together. Chairs didn’t scrape along the floor. The shower was silent whenever he took one.

He was like a ghost. Except those made sound on occasion.

“Dean. Let’s get out of the bunker, go do something fun,” you said, poking your head in your room. Dean was nowhere to be found. You checked the garage next, Baby still parked in there, no sign of him. “Dean! Where are you?”

You hoped that didn’t make him mad. He’d been having a bad week. Worse than normal which was saying something. You knew he was reaching his breaking point even if he kept it to himself.

“Dean,” you said again, wandering to your old bedroom, finding him sat on top of the bed, staring at you when you walked in. “Baby. What-”

He tossed his little whiteboard across the room and you took a seat beside him, Dean turning his head away.

“I love you,” you said, wrapping your arms around him, giving him a kiss. “I know this is hard and I miss talking to you. So let’s talk, okay?”

He tilted his head and moved to stand but you kept him in place.

“Maybe the conversation is going to be a bit one sided but we can still talk, can’t we?” you asked. He nodded, looking over to where he’d thrown his whiteboard. He went to grab it but you shook your head.

“What?” he mouthed. You pressed your lips to his, gently laying the two of you back. He blinked when you moved away, eyes watching your hand slide up into his hair. Your fingers ran through his stands, green eyes flickering up and back to your face. He was thinking, trying to understand as you grabbed his shoulder and moved his head, resting it closer to your own. You smiled as he kept watching you, still thinking.

“For all the things I hate about this situation, you know what I love? Whenever I tell you how amazing you are, how wonderful and good and handsome and strong and intelligent and witty and awesome you are, you can’t make that tsk noise or scoff or sigh or grumble or interrupt to tell me I’m wrong. You have to sit back and take it,” you said.

He gave you a bitch face, rolling his eyes as you kept playing with his hair. He started to nuzzle into the touch though, his face turning soft.

“I love you,” you said. He nodded and pecked a kiss on the top of your nose, big green eyes staring softly. “I know you love me too, Dean.”

He let out a silent breath of air, pulling you flush to him.

“I don’t care what happens. I’m with you,” you said.

He smiled and grabbed your hand, pressing it flat against his chest and over his heart. You felt his heartbeat and smiled.

Two Months Later

“Dean! Lunch is ready!” you shouted from the kitchen. “Bacon lettuce tomato with extra bacon for you!”

You waited a beat, no tuft of brown hair coming around the corner. You grabbed his plate and drink, carrying them out to the library where Dean was researching again.

“You want to eat in here?” you asked. Dean lifted his head and shook it, waving you over. “You don’t want bacon...okay. That’s not concerning or anything.”

He tapped his book and you set the food down, peering over his shoulder.

“A transference spell? You want to transfer it to someone else?” you asked. Dean nodded, tossing his whiteboard at you.

We can’t break it so let’s move it. Move the spell to someone it won’t affect, like someone in a coma that’s never going to wake up. You think that would work?

“Actually, that’s not a half-bad idea,” you said. “Lunch first and then we’ll see if it’s possible.”

“It was a good try,” you said that night. Dean was in the gym, smacking hits against the punching bag. “We’ll get your voice back.”

He looked around the bag, taking deep pants, hitting it once more.

“Dean,” you said, his face scrunching up as he swung again. Hard. He did it a few times, the bag bouncing around, Dean not letting up until he was breathing hard, falling down onto his butt. He shut his eyes and put his head between his knees.

You sat beside him, Dean letting you pull off his boxing gloves. You frowned when you saw he’d cut up his knuckles.

“Let’s clean this up,” you said when his breathing was more even. He followed you to the kitchen, his head low as you wiped down the cuts and dried it off. “I can’t imagine how hard this is. I can’t. But if you need to go and let your anger out, you will do it the right way. Tape up your hands next time, Ali.”

He nodded, glancing up through his eyelashes.

“What would you like for dinner?” you asked. He shrugged. “Pizza?”

“Uf,” you heard him say, both of you wide eyed. “Igaf!”

“You can talk!” you said. Dean did a fist pump and jumped up and down, his sneakers making the cement floor smack. “Sammy! I think the curse is broken!”

“Really? That’s awesome!” he shouted back, wandering into the kitchen after a moment. Dean was still making baby noises though and he was quickly frowning. “So it’s been about six months. Could have been a timing thing.”

“Yeah,” you said, staring at Dean.

“Ea,” he said, pouting. “Ea icese.”

“I have no idea what he’s trying to say,” said Sam.

“Dean,” you said.

“Ea,” said Dean, finding one of his white boards laying around.

I’m trying to say Dean Winchester. That’s all that comes out. It’s like my mouth doesn’t know how to make the sound.

“Y/N. This may sound strange but...I think I know what the witch did,” said Sam. “I read about it like, years ago.”

“Don’t keep us in suspense, Sam,” you said, Dean throwing up his hands.

“Infantiliccum curse. Six month initial period,” he said.

“Well what is it?”

“I think Dean is very lucky that witch only decided to mess with his voice,” said Sam. “It basically reverts whatever the witch chooses in the afflicted to become that like an infant. Babies can’t talk right? Dean couldn’t talk. The other sound thing might have been a side effect.”

“Yeah but he knows how to talk. Why-“

“Yeah, he does but this is the part Dean’s gonna be pissed about. There’s another six months before it fully wears off,” said Sam.

“Ic uns!” said Dean, his face scrunched up. “Fff mfh uc afh!”

“Pretty sure there was an f bomb in there somewhere,” you said. Dean nodded, glaring at Sam.

“Hey, I said fully reversed. Maybe now you can like, learn to talk again in the meantime,” said Sam. “Get some phrases back.”

Dean growled but he still smiled at being able to make sound.

“I think that’s a good idea. I’m sure you’ll pick it up fast.”

“I know this one’s hard,” you said about a week later, holding up a flash card.

“Owiop,” said Dean, opening his mouth wide. “Owiop. Uckin etter. I ate tat etter.”

“L’s are hard. Come on. Tongue up behind your teeth, narrow your cheeks in and drop your jaw. Lollipop.”

“Ollipop,” he said with a bit of a smile. “Oll...Lol...ipop. Loll...ipop. Lollipop. Uck it L’s. I ot tis now.”

“You want to take a break? We’ve been going all morning,” you said.

He just smiled and stared at you.

“I love you,” he said, no struggle this time.

“Been waiting a long time to hear that again,” you said, kissing him for a few long moments.

“Tank you,” he said. “Th...ank you.”

“Thank you for trying. We keep working it and you’ll be back to your old self in no time,” you said.

“Love you,” he said, kissing you again.

“I love you too, Dean. Even when you couldn’t say it, I knew baby. I always knew.”